its been so long since i last wrote something here. about  six months. i believe

 im not that different, some of my life is. but i really don't want to tell you bacause well, no one will read this, and i don't want to burden you

 i'm a  senior, scarry really. its homecoming week and i feel 100% bitter sweet about it.

i want to leave this town, but at the same time i never want to leave where i am right now. life is so easy  and i know it doesnt seem like it everyday, but i know when i look back it will be. next year is going to se so different and i know i will cry a river if i think about leaving people, so i wont

also its fall. sigh. i love this season.

 and i love marching band thats it,

...pants off dance off :) ...

so i'm in france right now.

i'm grateful yes, but my host family is not very fun, i don't do anything, yeah my host sister is busy, but then why did you host me?

 the experience is amazing, but i also did not pay around $3,000 to sit here

 oh well, i think i am in just a bad mood; and a little jelous of how much fun everyone else is having  with their cool french kids

i had a really weird dream last night it was one of those where you wake up and wonder if you dreamed that for a reason; like for me it was like 'this is what you want; not you just have to go get it'

ugh i hate those

and these french keybords, everything is different  these are where the number keys are suppose to be... ²&é"'(-è_çà)= yeash and you have to press shift to get the number, also a lot of the keys are different like the q is where the a is and the a is where the w should be... alos the m is effed up..  wow

 i better go its almost dinner i think? maybe?

 So i think i'm getting back into writing in my Xanga becasue, well no one dose anymore, and  its a really good way for me to  let some stuff out, anyways its probley a phase

i like music :)

i miss icons :(

 today i had SWAT

Amazing

sometimes i need to eat my own words

 i really enjoy All Time Low i barley know anything by them, but  I really like :)

life is confusing

 so is math

wow its been a good two months

 i found my i pod\

and i've decided that i'm very glas that i grew up in the harry potter era.

  i still have to go to the library,,, i miss my computer at  home :(

 Only dead fish go with the flow

ick

i can't find my ipod.

i think my sister took it with her to collage on accident.

i am verrrrry varrry depressed.

 you have no idea :(